It's been a year since I fell from the trap .  The trap of inevitability of falling in love which gives a  wonderful but temporary feeling that provides moment of bliss in such short amount of time.  However, It shuttered my life  for the long time and  became the turning point of everything. 

That moment was so fast that I can't even internalized what was happened in that moment of my life. I didn't expect to fall in love little by little. It's been a long time I felt that way  but the problem is I was wrong of my perception for what we are. 

I was deceived by her actions and I was a fool falling on her . Since then , I started to think about what happen and I can't even comprehend  reasons why is it happen due to my dependence on my emotions . It takes me a year to suffer from the biggest heartbreak I experienced.

A year after that, things changed. I realized things that doesn't work on us. Maybe it meant it on that way . I guess we are not for each other. Maybe, it leads to something better. One thing I am sure of, It makes me a better person. It makes me a human again . 

From what I have experienced, it helps me how to decide in the matter of love now.  Back then I became fully dependent on emotional aspect , but now I really integrate reason to every decision making especially within the week.  I have a conversation  with my college crush now and I was in to our conversation. Exercising my reason in a logical way today  , I know how to manage my expectations emotionally 

I was thankful of the things we share to the woman that I loved before. I was thankful for what happen and I guess it leads me to someone better. Right now, I make decisions exercising reason domain which is our logos alongside appetitive and spirited or emotion of our tripartite body of soul in Plato's philosophy. That moment contributes to the decision I made this week, which is to use reason with emotion.