Week 10

I received a message that there was an issue spreading about me. It was about our Laguna trip last May 27-29. This is because my partner and I submitted our work late in one subject. 

And it feels like everyone's pointing at me to blame. Words spreading out that I have all the time for vacation trip but nothing for school loads.

I got so mad and I wanted to clear my name because I feel everyone's eye is on me. And I became the center of discussion. In fact in that same subject, I got heated on by our teacher. I don't know it it's purposeful but it feels like it. 

I was absent in our 2 consecutive meetings because it has the same time with my tutor. That's why I really wanted to attend the class so I can follow-up on the discussions I missed and then boom. I was targeted. To be honest, I was really listening to the discussion, its just that i don't know much about the last lesson they take and its hard to catch up with them. That's why I just answer based on my own knowledge.

 I feel so ashamed and it even lowers my self esteem. After that I knew, there is something going on. There I found out that there was an issue circling around.

Of course I was so disappointed with myself for letting this happen. It was very far from the Ashley before. But I was also disappointed that they never gave me the benefit of the doubt. They thought that all I do is enjoying my life.. how I wish.

I'm also a bit disappointed because aside from that was the first time I've been treated that way, that was also the first time I witnessed a teacher taking a heat on somebody because they caused trouble. 

Actually it looks unprofessional to me, because I've witness trouble makers long before. I even experienced a very bright student cheating on the exam and creating conflicts to the teacher but they didn't take it against him in class nor it affects his grade. They remain professional and assess the student based on his knowledge and skills. My former teachers never take the heat on somebody else. 

I don't know if its because I was the bad guy, it looks unprofessional to me. Although I understand the frustration I caused, but I just didn't expect it to witness it in the Collegiate level. 

Regardless, I know where I lack, what I did wrong and I am very sorry for it. And I regret it all.