There's two parts two or you could even say two stories but yeah ill start of with this one first bare with me while i take u through how i gave

up on love and life...

and i knew he used to like me because one day we were on our bikes at night the cold air whirling around us running out of breathe we raced to our houses the rain lashes out at us soaking us but we couldn't care less . As we stopped to part ways he went through the door and me being love struck just kept on staring he turned around and whispered two words i never knew those two word could change my life make me crazy wanting him so much . i felt like he was a necessity i needed him...

its now been a year and a half since i had seen him. Lots of things had changed...

his dad left him , he stopped talking to my cousins and that meant he had to stop talking to me.

i had forgotten him...

until one cold rainy day the cold wind slapping my face whirling my hair back and forth i was freeing until someone kicked the bus stop not going to lie i was scared

part 2

but when i saw his face i forgot about everything warmth flooded through my veins my love for him resurrected the smile he gave me was all enough to make me love him again even if he didn't try contacting me i hated him but i loved him he rode of with his friend not waiting to talk to me not even a hi?!?!? but the smile was enough . I ran out the bus stop not worrying about the rain and my straightened hair he turned back twice to look at me? or was it me? i don't know i'm now writing this about to leave back to my house which is roughly 67Miles away and i probably won't see or talk to him for another year whyyyyy?!?!?!?!?!?!!?

this was after i had mid gotten over the boy who lived next to my uncles and this was the year and a half i started high school . I had not gotten my timetable and proper classes set so i had to shadow but after i week i walked i'm all flustered and sweaty and my eyes were set on a not so good looking boy with his pale caramel complexion and his warm brown eyes melted my heart i hated myself . how could i love some one ever again? i knew i was going to get hurt