Hey journal it is me Jaden and I fell in love with:

The way she feels

The way she smells

The way she talks

The way she moves

The way she breathes

The way she screams

The way she loves

The way she rubs

I fell in love with the way her brown skin glows in the summer sun.

One kiss from her will make my heart run.

When our bodies are pressed together our hearts move in sequence.

The way her lavender perfume smells after a long day of work makes my legs weaken .

She fixed me

She guides me

She loves me

She treasures me

My world was hell before she came into my life

At first glance I knew she would become my wife.

I got into a bad shoot out, I thought I would lose my life no doubt. All I could think about was my family. How my mom and sister were crying in agony .

At this point of my life I didn't care if I died.

I thought maybe life would be easier on the other side.

I was shot so many times

all I saw were blurred lines.

The next thing I remember was the ride to the hospital.

The EMT's said if I made it out I would be cripple.

I blacked out faster than a blow of a whistle .

I knew I was a goner.

My heart began to beat calmer.

Right before I wanted to quit

I heard the EMT's say we finally made it .

I woke up crying and praying in agony.

They rushed me to my room preparing me for surgery .

I blacked out again from them hurting me.

Hours later I began hearing a noise.

I was able to comprehend things but couldn't see.

I began screaming but no one heard me.

I heard a heavy set woman come into my room She said “hey son my name is Mona and I'm your nurse”.

She also told me I was in a coma and my liver burst

She said in a joking way ”might as well make yourself comfortable” .

Days go by,

Every morning Mona would tell me the date

today happens to be March 19, 2008 but

it didn't feel like an ordinary day.

Mona got fired the nurses would say.

A new lady walked into my room the same day.

I knew it wasn't Mona bc this lady smelled differently.

She moved so elegantly.

She began talking and I instantly fell in love with her beautiful soft angelic voice.

She would talk to me like I was up and before she left she would kiss me on my head and tell me everything will be okay .

I wish she would stay preferably all day

but I know she'll be back the next day .

When she left I would picture how beautiful she was

I would wonder why just one kiss?

And how Long did she talk with a lisp?

I fell in love with her lavender perfume it smelled so crisp .

Even though I didn't know her I loved her ,

I didn't want anyone else but her