Poem Titles

        Get me off the stage                                              4

        My Yong Italy                                                           5

        Starry Night                                                             6    

        Cry Out                                                                     7

        Steps to Leave                                                         8   

        Free                                                                         10 

        Strings                                                                     12

        Tug of War                                                              13 

        Am I in Wonderland?                                            15

        Torn                                                                          17

        Closed                                                                      18

Reprint                                                   19

Just be Happy                                        20

Orange Poppies                                    21

Home                                                      22

Time                                                        23

Choices                                                   24

Hide                                                         25

Safe                                                          26

Cruel                                                        27

When it Come                                        28

Get me of the stage

Get me off the stage, I’m tired of the spotlight

There’s people yelling at me, to be perfect

Take me away from the torture

The expectations for are too high to climb 

And my muscles are sore

The mountain’s to steep, to slick, rocky to climb

I’m tired, I’m ready to give up

But if I fall I’ll fall to rock bottom

I’ll ruin my life more than what I’ve done to it

My Young Italy

At night I sit and wonder

Why my life always seems to be in a blunder

Ever since you flew away

To another land where you lay today

It seems I lost everything

When I lost you, my young Italy

From overseas you flew

To the coast you land 

As a new life began for you

Living peacefully by the sand

Your wings were tattered on your fly

And landed lopsided even through your try

I tried to heal but I was too late

Our relationship had no hate 

You were the first person in my life I lost

But I was happy our lives had crossed

I guess the universe said it wasn’t meant to be 

Hence why I lost you my young Italy

Every night I cry 

And have a since a guilt 

For I never got to say goodbye 

As that makes my heart tilt

You were a true friend

With you in my memory till my days end

I hope you wait for me 

I hope you remember me 

My young Italy

Starry Night

I stare up at the starry night

And wonder about those dancing lights

As I start to connect the dots

I continue to collect my thoughts

I make the stories come to life

As they dwell forever within my mind

With so much wonder in this history

All of the stories end up to such a mystery

I can never feel as welcome as the stars

And I wait for my spot to be ready and could be ours

But I can wait for my time

I can wait for my climb

The climb to the stars

The spot that will be ours

My adventure awaits

But it is a walk not a race

So I will not hurry

I will not run I will not scurry

For our place can wait

The stars will update

We can wait for each other

Please wait for one other

We waited long enough

Please make sure you make my life less tough

Whenever I look at the starry night

I think of you

Cry Out

Every night I cry out

But nothing ever comes out

I think that I have dried out

And I can’t even lie about it

I think I’m fading away

By every single day

I think I’m stuck in a dream

It is as it seems

I think it’s my personality

While my head is still stuck in reality

I think I’m about to disappear 

From wherever I am here

I am stuck in my own mind

The thing I made is the thing that I can’t find

No matter how much I try

I can’t seem to cry

By every single night

I can try with all my might

I starting to lose my mind

But don’t worry I won’t do suicide

Every night I try to cry out

But nothing ever comes out

Now I know that I’ve dried out

But I know I now can’t lie to myself 

But I say that I’m fine

But now I really truly can’t lie

Steps to Love 

Love is hard it never gets easy

The harder you try the harder it seems

But don’t shower it down 

Don’t shut it down

Don’t you dare give up on love

Because the wind will guide you

the earth will carry you

The storm will find you

The flowers will welcome

The water will sooth you

The fire will protect you

And the icy cold will end it all

The wind guides you to the place of him

The earth will carry you when you fall in love

The storm of arguments will eventually find you

The flowers will welcome you back in his arms

The fire of this toxic will protect you from him

And the icy cold will end it all

But one day all that fire will melt that ice 

And love will glow through the cold

Just wait

Again

Love will eventually come

Free

Let me disappear

No one cares that I am here

I’m simply just a ghost

But I care the most

If someone cares about me 

It’s merely in a dream

I’m in the clouds 

Away from the crowds

Away from the noise

Away from the choices

That I can’t make

Let me feel free

Let me feel like me

My wings want to fly

Please let me at least once touch the sky

I want me to feel like me

Not just in a dream 

Also in reality

Please I’m locked down

No one is around

To hear me scream in pain

Me wings are both chained

For no reason

I’m not a monster I did no treason

I just want to feel like me

I want to be free

Let me free

I want to touch the sky

One more time

I want to feel like home

I want to be somewhere known

Not reality

Not the sinister

Not where there is no one to hear me

I want to finally

Truly 

Really

Be me 

Be free

Strings

Strings are holding on tight to my hands

I played right into the Puppet Master’s plans

Dancing, dancing right from the start 

These strings are pulling me apart

I’m falling falling into his trap

Just like the other guys he’s a dirty rat

He controls me I can’t resist

I fell for him ever since that kiss

Even if I try he won’t let go

Cause when he tightens them it's time for the show

I smile even if I’m crying

Like he would know I’m done

I’ll dance even if I’m dying

But the show must go on

The strings they hold me tight

As I dance every night

Through the pain 

Through the rain

Again and Again

The strings they take my voice

So I have no choice 

But not resist

And just persist

Untie the strings

Unlock the knots

Jump through the rings

As the fire makes me rot

Freedom is right in front of my face

But I can’t reach for it

So why did I permit

To wear this stupid necklace

Even if I try to escape

It will only leave a scrape

As strings they tighten

The shock is like lightning

This pain is real

Why did I agree to this stupid deal

I dance to the Puppet Master’s requests

How did I get into this mess

Why is it me

Why not him

Why can’t I be controlling them

Why can’t I just be free

Even though he captured me

I fell for it 

I took the hit

I guess it wasn’t meant to be

But I have no one else to blame but me 

Tug of War

Am I good?

Am I bad?

Wish I knew

I feel the war

In my soul 

If I fight I can’t block the goal

The demons and angels are making me choose

On which I do or my blood will ooze

Hell or heaven that I can’t decide

Cause the Tug of War is tugging at my mind

My feathery angel wings 

They’re tearing at the seams

My golden halo is crying out for help

But my demon tail and horn is disintegrating

And Satan and God are just watching

Enjoying my dying show

Why oh why

Can’t they hear me cry

Why oh why

Please just tell me my destiny

Surely dying in the gap is not a way to go

Your army is making me full of woe

So please just tell me what I can do

I can’t fight, my voice has been drowned out by you

I wanna trust you but this Tug of War is tortuous 

My feathery angel wings are tearing at the seams 

My golden halo is crying out for help

But my demon tail and horns are disintegrating

Satan and God are still watching

What you hear isn’t crying

It’s them laughing

At my dying show

Am I in Wonderland?

Am I in Wonderland?

Where my fate is never in my own hands

Have I been in a dream

Or am I still in reality?

If I was in Wonderland would things make sense to me,

Or would things just be more confusing?

I don’t know anymore

I thought my mind was an open door,

Or has it been closed for a long long time?

Has it been closed my entire life?

Wherever I am now there is no logic

Everything is the opposite as what it should be

All of this fake magic

Has been no treat to me 

If I was in Wonderland would it feel like home,

Or in Wonderland would I be even more alone?

Is this Wonderland or is it reality?

If this is reality shouldn’t it make more sense to me?

Would Wonderland make sense,

Or would it make me tense?

Growing from Small to Tall constantly

That doesn’t seem like torture to me

If this was reality I wouldn’t wonder

If this was Wonderland I wouldn’t learn about reality

If this was Wonderland I could fight the stormy thunder

But when I’m in reality no one listens to me 

Is this reality or…

Am I Really Truly in Wonderland?

Torn

Torn to pieces

A piece of paper I fly

My stress increases

Force a smile I try

Love surrounds me

But my shield blocks them out too

In case your worrying

I’m fine how are you

Do you help me 

Guide me

Watch over me

Do you protect me 

From those who try to do harm

I wish I could’ve done that too

With you in my arms

I’m sorry if I’m being a baby 

Maybe you could heal me

I hold in my tears cause it kills me

Lately 

I’ve been wishing for new start 

Maybe 

One without my torn heart

Closed

You tell me to open up

You tell me I’m as sweet as buttercup

I’m sorry it’s always a coincidence

It might just be a difference

But every time you come by

I’m always closed

Locked up

Bordered

You won’t see me out

And about

Turn around 

I’m not there

Try another day