I overheard my mother and my tita talking on the phone. My tita asked my mother for some money because she needs to go to the hospital. My mother said she cannot give anything right now because she does not have any extra money and its not her pay day yet.

  JANUARY 18,2021 

I was so worried for my tita. I then realized that I have my savings. I was hesitant at first if I would offer it to my mother for my tita's laboratory but then I realized..

She has been so generous to me every time that she sees me that is why I I finally decided to lend my money to her. After giving it to my aunt, I was relieved and a little embarrassed that I even hesitated in the first place.

What Insights Leigh Learned:
Giving and helping others is difficult especially when you also have personal struggles to deal with every day. Giving does not have to be grandiose. It is always the thought and the willingness that counts. 

JANUARY 19, 2021

Today was the second day of formal classes for 2nd term and there was this article which was one of the required readings for one of our class today. I really don't understand what the article's main point and I am so frustrated because I was reading it since yesterday but I just can't fully grasp its content. I only have two hours left before the synchronous session to understand it.

I was choosing between continuing reading the given material or simply give up and pray to God that I won't be called to recite. At the end, I carried on with reading and just minutes before the meeting, I finally got what the author was trying to say! ( I think). I am so proud of myself for not giving up and I am thankful that I am becoming strong and sedulous as time goes by. 

I was not called for recitation during the synchronous meeting…

What Insights Leigh Learned:

Just like the quotation in one of my favorite movie, "A real loser is somebody that is so afraid of not winning, they don't even try." I learned that in order to be strong, I must experience hardships and never let myself be wavered by constant fear of rejection and failure. I am still in progress in eradicating my negative thinking but I know I'll be better soon.

Stoooop!

I noticed that my mother was starting to buy things that are not essential and I was somewhat concerned because we might start to have financial problems. I was thinking if it is right to address this issue to her because its not my money in the first place. At the end, I still told my mom that I think she should stop spending too much because we might be needing extra money on emergencies. She was not totally mad but I felt that she was irritated and told me that I should not intervene on such issues. 

JANUARY 20, 2021

What Insights Leigh Learned:

Being cautious with words and our approach to people in general is important in keeping healthy relationships. Always be mindful of how we speak and act and keep in mind not just our own personal feelings but also with  other people's feelings.

JANUARY 21, 2021

All of my morning plans were disrupted and that made me irritated. I cannot focus on my studies, and  I was not concentrated during online classes. It was already afternoon and my to do list was still full. Normally, every time that this happens to me, I just slack off for the whole day. But it was different this time.

I am that type of person who plans her day ahead of time. I jot down all the things that I need to do: the time for waking up, things that I should accomplish within that day and hours given for these objectives. Unfortunately, there will be days where you will wake up on the wrong side of the bed. And that day is today.

I remembered what we studied in one of our courses during first term about meditating and I tried it. I started to calm myself. I tried to forget every thing on my list and just listened to a calming music. I also watched one episode of a funny sitcom and then talked internally to myself about my plan for today. After that, I started to do my work and I have finished it all today. This kind of attitude is so rare for me because I often give up when I feel irritated.

What Insights Leigh Learned:

Sophocles said that success is dependent on effort. We must always do what we want and love with great endeavor. I am pleased seeing myself continuously progressing on self-management especially in this current set-up in education. In addition, I also learned that it is important to apply lessons that we learn in real life (Thanks to our Intra and Interpersonal Development course)